When my siblings and I were in Korea, we met an incredible man at the orphanage.
Randy was in the Navy. But what mattered to me as a little girl was that he was warm and friendly. In a place full of little children who were given up by their parents for various reasons, a smiling, friendly face was a welcome sight. I was intrigues with Randy. And it seems that it was mutual.
Certain people leave everlasting impressions on our hearts and Randy was one of them. Even though we had only really known each other for a month, I always wondered what happened to Randy. The truth was, I had hopes that he would end up being my dad.
So fast forward to today. On Friday, after a fun evening with a pastor and his family, we came home and I checked my phone. I noticed that there was a message from a Randy Lewis and the subject was: "Maybe Remember Me." I was astounded and shocked to think that we had finally found each other again.
Emotions began swirling inside of me. It was an event that I had longed for. But here it was and I was beside myself. I didn't have the words to express what I was feeling. But I felt overwhelmed and thankful. Then the questions came flooding in. What will it be like to talk to him? How has it been? How will he take what's happened in my life? Here I was contemplating my chance to finally talk to Randy and connect with him once again.
As we e-mailed and set up a time to talk, I realized that it was really going to happen. After all of these years. I had the wonderful blessing of being reunited with my mom in person last year at this time. Now, another blessing. The blessing came with a responsibility. I had to come to terms with aspects of my past once again. All of the things that happened as a kid, came rushing back to me. I was now an adult expected to be able to handle those things that I could not handle all of those years ago. So here I am.
Randy and I talked. I think my heart is still processing it. It is hard to describe. It went better than I could have expected. I am still in the middle of it all. It seems to a dream. I haven't woken up. But God is here, right beside me. Walking with me. Helping me. Letting me make peace with my past.
